LUST,  LOVE  AND  PRAYER

Dr Sudhansu Kumar Dash

Man is an opening, an evolution with all possibilities that the existence has. Man is energy, dynamism, a process; a creative process with thousand and a one potentialities and alternatives open. Man, the miniature of the existence, of course a drop, but the drop has all that the ocean has. A drop of course, but a conscious drop and the consciousness is oceanic; it knows no boundaries. The man under discussion here is not the ordinary man but the ordinary man metamorphosed to the essential man.

The ordinary man is not born with a soul but he has to create it through effort. It is only a fact that every man is burn with an opportunity. It can be used, it can be wasted. So the whole thing depends upon man. One has to become a creator by oneself and the body is a possibility. The real man is yet to happen. In the real birth one has to become one’s own father, one’s own mother and this real birth is an inner birth of creativity .For that one is to move with inwards to find one’s own source of energy .It is not only to find, but change the mechanical channels of the t energy and to make conscious channels for it.

Normally energy flows down wards that is what called lust. By calling it a lust it is not condemned, not denounced .either. It is just a fact that ordinarily water flows downwards which can neither be condemned nor be denounced but water can raise upwards .just a little heat is needed to make it evaporate. The same water that always going down words, now starts going up. Just a conversion has happened, nothing more.  Lust is the same energy as love but the difference is only that of direction. Lust moves downwards but love moves upwards. All energy is the same. Energy as such is neutral. To be creative means to be conscious of the energy. The downward movement of the energy is destructive and by allowing so one is simply dissipating oneself.

Every moment we are being poured with energy by existence through air, water, food, sunlight, moonlight,and a thousand and one other subtle influences but what are we doing with that energy? Are we creating something out of it or simply wasting it? It just comes through one end and is lost through the other end. Subtle juices are created by that energy, that what sex is, the most powerful energy of the body. Lust is the lowest form of sex energy, love is the highest form.

There is a certain mechanism in man called kundabuffer ,just opposite to kundalini.The upward flow of the energy moves through kundalini and the downward flow moves through kundabuffer.This kundabuffer passage has to be destroyed, melted and destructured .It is a mechanism out of the continuous practice of many lives. A certain mechanism has arise in everybody, a channel. The moment energy is ready, it moves through this channel and one must know that, this channel is ready to take it out of one’s being. If this is the truth and nothing else is possible, then Jean-Paul Sartre is right in saying that man is a useless passion. But this is not all. The kundabuffer can be melted and once it is destroyed, another channel starts functioning. It is already there waiting for man but man has not allowed energy to flow into it. Of course, it is an arduous task because going downwards is easy but going upwards, strength, a certain will, courage, trust, many things will be needed.

The really adventurous and courageous is attracted towards this path of self transformation. This is the greatest religion of man. the more conscious one is ,the more energy starts flowing upwards on its own accord. Consciousness is the clue, the key, the master key. Lost becomes love through consciousness.

All our so called love is as unconscious as anything else. It is unconscious, therefore we use the expression ‘falling in love’, but in conscious love is a rising phenomenon. So our love is just a name for lust-a beautiful name. This beautiful word is very deceptive.

All most all of us are functioning through kundabufferThis mechanism exists just at the center of the sex. People living on this center can have two sorts of lives; one is indulgence and the other is repression-but both are the same. Ordinarily, the people, who live a life of repression are thought to be saints, but simply foolish. They are the same people with a different garb. People who live a life of  repression are as unconscious as the people who live a life of indulgence. Indulgence and repression are the two faces of the same type of person. In monasteries one will find the repressive type and in the world the indulgent type. Both are complimentary to one another. Their obsession is the same, their fixation is the same, and their neurosis is the same. In fact the stronger the kundabuffer is, the more people become repressive, because they want to control it. This control is but forces their sex desire deep into the unconscious and they continuously fight against it.

One thing should be clearly understood that when one fights with something, one can never leave it and one can never go beyond it as well. To fight with something means one is to remain on the same level of the fighting object. So the only way is to melt down the kundabuffer.

One technique, though small, is of tremendous help. When sex desire arises, there are three possibilities; one is to indulge in it that ordinary people do that everybody is doing, second; to repress it so that it is forced to go beyond the consciousness into the darkness of unconsciousness and thrown into the basement of life. But it is there. That is what the so called extraordinary people are doing-the saints , the monks , the mahatmas, But both the types of people are against nature, against the inner science of transformation. The third; when sex desire arises, one should close the eyes as it is the most valuable moment. The desire arising is the energy arising. This is the moment to be meditative in moving downwards to the sex centre where one feels the thrill, the vibration, the kick and remaining there as a silent onlooker, witnessing it not condemning it. Just to watch the fact that an energy arising near the sex center. In watching the thrill one will feel that a totally new kind of energy rising upwards and finding a path inside the body. The moment it starts rising upwards, one will feel a coolness falling on him, a silence surrounding him and beatitude all around. The more one remains aware, the higher it will move and if it can come up to the heart one will know for the first time what love is. Here one’s whole being is purified. One will feel virgin. Pure and so holy that one will feel heaven within and everywhere. Heaven is no more a theology then, it will become almost a geography. One will know exactly that God is no longer a hypothesis, not a theory but a self evident truth, not an argument, not a proof ,but a conclusion.

When the energy comes to the center of the throat, it becomes prayer. We pray but we donor know what prayer is. Prayer is the most subtle and refined form of love. If one has not moved to the heart center, one cannot go to prayer. In doing certain rituals, people assert that they say something, but just by using the throat center and saying something to god  is not prayer. Prayer is concerned with the throat center but it is not a s verbalization. It is an experience at the center, and the experience is exactly like when a child sucks at the mother’s breast for the first time. It is not to say something but to receive something.

Prayer is not something that one does with God, It is something that one allows God to do with him. It is receptive. It is not an action on one’s part, it is a passive welcome. It is difficult to receive His gift when one is possessed with one’s own ideas and plans.

A real prayer is nothing to say to God except a deep gratitude and thankfulness. It simply accepts whatsoever God is pouring.

Lecturer in English

Shreedhara Swamy college of Education and Technology

Sadangi,Dhenkanal,Odisha,INDIA.